Discouraged

It's been a long journey to develop a career. Less than six months away from being a nurse and i've never been so discouraged. I mean I have had things not go my way in certain aspects but then usually, in other aspects I get a little bit of a break. I will be graduating nursing school in May and taking the state boards in July or so. Yet, my work as a Nursing Assistant is falling apart and my preceptorship is nothing like I hoped it would be. I don't feel like I am doing anything differently and there are times in which I (have felt) feel very blessed and encouraged in my nursing journey but right now I am just feeling overwhelmed and discouraged. I have to keep moving along and hoping for the best but I can't help wondering why so much is holding me back now. Last semester was by far the most difficult and stressful time in my schooling ever and I was fine. This semester is just plain heartbreaking and I don't know why. Every time I wish for something or hope for something or try and fix my situation, it seems I am given either the exact opposite of what I want and I am being stopped dead in my tracks. It's actually pretty insane from my perspective. I just want to feel love for my new career and get SOMETHING that I WANT. I'm not usually like this but when every single thing you hope for, I mean word for word, is literally being crushed in front of you, you start to feel like you are in sort of a twisted nightmare. I'm ready to move through this and see what is on the other side because, I hate to think it since the opposites have happened to me though, I need to hope for some relief.