ADN School Has Ended! :/

Here I am, one day after finding out that I have officially passed Associates Degree Nursing school. 2-3 years of prerequisites, 3 years of waiting and 2 years of facing each test with the potential it could make or break me. It's such a weird experience in that you wait/ fight to get into nursing school and it is nothing you want more in life. Then you start and its constant stress. Even during the summer break that I had,  unknown of the next two semesters was stressful, plus life had a way of catapulting my stress to a whole new level through life situations. I didn't live each day constantly worried or anything and sometimes my stress just didn't effect me too bad. I'd like to think I handled it pretty well. Even when life made it even more challenging than it needed to be, I took one day at a time and through support and obviously being blessed with a smart brain, or maybe just a brain that was meant to be a nurse I survived. As much as it seemed like right at the end, I couldn't handle everything better, it's more that I did what I had to do to make it happen. I still believe that I was pretty stuck with some sucky situations. But all I can say is that for the past almost 2 years my life was pretty much one purpose: to survive nursing school. That was pretty much my identity. Now I have to pass the NCLEX-RN and then think about finding a job. I realize that now, after all of the fighting to survive, I have to find my identity again. I have to go back to the world loving, healthy living, fair trade, made in USA, poly, Jesus loving girl I am. Hopefully I will add RN to that in a few months! 

Road Trip! Today!

Were going to San Francisco and the coastal highway. We will be home late tonight!

Road Trip! Day 2

I'm behind on talking about the road trip. So, I am talking about yesterday, our anniversary day! If I catch up I can actually talk about today, today! He he. So, yesterday we woke up in Tahoe. Sav worked and lived in Tahoe for many years and loved it, so she had places she knew she wanted to take us. Alex had a rough night not feeling good, and really all of us didn't feel great, maybe it was the altitude? Maybe it was traveling all day? Maybe it was road trip with a dog food? Maybe was taking new supplements we haven't had before? All of the above? Well we slept in and felt much better but it was the afternoon when we checked put. Sav wanted to take us to Burger Lounge, which is supposed to have the best burgers in the area. So, we had Burger Lounge and it was good! I had a "La Pina" burger which had bacon and grilled pineapple. I liked that the meat was flame grilled the best. I also had an orange soda float which I enjoyed also. After Burger Lounge Sav took us to this snow area. It is normally a sledding fun spot but since the snow was already melting it was closed. But we still were able to go into the area "at our risk". The fun thing was there was still plenty of snow even though it was melted and some spots were muddy. Since it was closed and we were the only ones there we let Toby off the leash to run around and he just loved it. he was the happiest dog. Walking through the snow was a bit tough because it was still pretty deep so it was easy to step and fall into the snow. It was pretty funny. Then I found a broken plastic sled that was still doable for sliding. So I tried it was was going so fast I had to throw myself off of it to stop. I did it twice and I didn't have proper snow gear so I cut my hand a bit and had some freeze burn on my fingers. But it wasn't too bad and was fun and Alex was proud of me for being adventurous. Then Sav took us to this cabin that she helped take care of for about 6 months where she lived. It was right on this huge lake surrounded beautiful mountains, some with snow, some with lots of green trees. It really was very pretty. After that we went to the tourist area for the Emerald Lake. Sav took lots of pictures and I even took a few. After that we went to see the waterfall. That was fun because we climbed boulders to get a good view of the waterfall. Then I found a nook in the bushes which was fun to crawl into. After that we pretty much headed to Sacramento as our night stop. By the time we got to the motel 6 at Sacramento it was like 8:30/8:45. That was a huge problem for food. Some places like Chinese places delivered but stopped at 9:00 and by the time I got to find the right spot it was too late. We ended up resorting to Denny's take out. It was a fun day and we made lots of memories, took pictures and had fun together and with our dog. 

Road trip! Day 1

9 years ago me and Alex got married. We were only about 20 years old. It's spring break and Sav and Alex took some extra time off of work so we can celebrate by going on a road trip. We brought our dog Toby as well. Yesterday, we drove through the California desert and then some Sierra Nevada mountains, a few miles in Nevada to come to South Lake Tahoe. About 12 hours. We stopped at rest stops and some scenic areas. Toby has been having a great time. Yesterday, in the middle of nowhere desert we were driving down the road when we came across and accident where someone had crashed into a electrical post thereby causing the electrical wire to be blocking the road. So, Alex stopped and got out to help and organized a plan to get the electrical pole to the other side of the road to remove the wire from blocking the road. Alex was worried that someone wouldn't see it and run into it. He helped direct traffic and find wire cutters from one of the truckers. Sav took some pictures as she is really into photography right now. We stayed in motel 6 in south lake Tahoe, which was cool because it was pretty cheap for the 3 of us and a dog.

Discouraged

It's been a long journey to develop a career. Less than six months away from being a nurse and i've never been so discouraged. I mean I have had things not go my way in certain aspects but then usually, in other aspects I get a little bit of a break. I will be graduating nursing school in May and taking the state boards in July or so. Yet, my work as a Nursing Assistant is falling apart and my preceptorship is nothing like I hoped it would be. I don't feel like I am doing anything differently and there are times in which I (have felt) feel very blessed and encouraged in my nursing journey but right now I am just feeling overwhelmed and discouraged. I have to keep moving along and hoping for the best but I can't help wondering why so much is holding me back now. Last semester was by far the most difficult and stressful time in my schooling ever and I was fine. This semester is just plain heartbreaking and I don't know why. Every time I wish for something or hope for something or try and fix my situation, it seems I am given either the exact opposite of what I want and I am being stopped dead in my tracks. It's actually pretty insane from my perspective. I just want to feel love for my new career and get SOMETHING that I WANT. I'm not usually like this but when every single thing you hope for, I mean word for word, is literally being crushed in front of you, you start to feel like you are in sort of a twisted nightmare. I'm ready to move through this and see what is on the other side because, I hate to think it since the opposites have happened to me though, I need to hope for some relief.

Thanks! Wonderful comment about Gay Marriage and the Bible: NPR

isa kocher • 2 years ago

Whatever happened to Paul's prohibition of Phariseeism, and salvation by

 "law" We 

are "saved" by faith ALONE. Not by sinlessness but by God's unlimited

 infinite forgiveness.
 Sinlessness is impossible. 

As for Boswell, actual parish records, centuries of French middle ages

 parish church
 records show unequivocably that the church blessed same sex unions

 in fact, de jure
 and defacto. Families raised by same sex couples recognized by 

the churches. 

Most Christians did not "marry." It was too expensive. Certainly not in a 

church. That was
 for rich people. 
                   
All the deniers of same sex love deny church history, deny the actual

 Hebrew, Aramaic
 and Greek with which "scriptures" are written and the actual words of

 the "Bible" about
 such lives as Ruth and Naomi and Jonathan and David and explicit

 blessing of same sex
 love throughout both the Hebrew Aramaic scriptures and the Aramaic

 Greek scriptures. 
They invent and then lie. 

Overwhelmingly, scripture expresses its approval of gay people, 

for example the Ethiopian
 eunuch in Acts. "Eunuch" did NOT mean castrati. It was in each of 

the Middle Eastern
 languages a euphemis, household "slave" as opposed to farming or

 manufacturing slave.
 Educated. Non-male males. "Gay"

isa kocher • 2 years ago

1. there are substantıve well founded textual crıtıcısm of the socalled 

prohıbıtıons same sex

 love. Jesus himself says some are gay for God's sake in Matthew. 

Nowhere in any book of

 the hundreds in the Bible does the Hebrew the Aramaic or the Greek

 unequivocably

 prohibit same sex love. What is prohibited explicitly is exploitation, rape

 and injustice,

 and idol worship. And nowhere does the Hebrew or the Aramaic extol 

ONE man and

 One woman. Such readings do not exist in the 5 and 6 thousand year

 old idioms and 

cultural references inexplicable today. The hate theology is read back 

into texts unrelated

 to the question of same sex love. These texts are so idiomatic and so 

contextual nobody 

today can definitively say what the original intent was but it was not 

about same sex love

 for certain. 
2. there are extensive passages extolling and encouraging same sex love,

 in the most open and unmistakable terms. Yet these are ignored. 
3. the homophobic "christians" simply lie yet not once are their assertians

 ever challenged.
4. the church, east and west, Latin, and  Greek, blessed same sex unions

 in church

Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!This is my favorite type of argument.

 That one that
 exposes loud and clear that anti LGBT Christians are just ignoring so

 much of the Bible 
and  church history to focus on the parts that supposedly supports

 their point. Sure you
can quote a million times the verses of the Bible you think have to do 

with
"homosexuality" (still don't know where the anti-trans comes from) as

 it may apply
 today and make the argument based on sexual purity between "one man

 and one 
woman" but then you cannot ignore the other side of the argument that 

uses just as
 many verses to make the VALID point that sexual purity is not just in 

the context of 
"one man and one woman marriage." Therefore, the bottom line is that

 because there 
are two valid points to each side of the argument, trying to force the 

view of sexual
 purity only in the context of marriage between one man and woman is

 only arrogant
 because there are many different valid arguments that come from the

 Bible itself as 
well. 

Uggg facebook!

So, I am learning to avoid Facebook. I mean what is interesting about it is that it is something I had to purposely do to begin to change my habits. In some ways it is a new years resolution. I am not doing it because I am trying to be hipstery or anything but because it seems when I go on Facebook it tends to suck my soul. I rarely feel good about it and because I am not sure how to totally be myself on there than I don't really like posting a lot anymore either. It is not like I am quitting entirely or never go on there, I just want to do more productive, positive things with my time. I feel weird about posting at all because I so rarely go on there anymore I can miss a lot of thing other people are doing and I don't want people to think I am ignoring them. Well anyways, since I lost that form of documenting and I feel like documenting more now I want to start writing here again. Maybe I will get inspired and write more philosophically at some point. I am feeling kind of clear minded and good right now, it is kind of weird but hopefully I can keep it up. Just to document/write with this app and phone, nothing fancy.